It happened last Monday night... out of nothing... I was lying in bed around 9.30 pm.. drifting in and out of sleep... Suddenly I felt my throat itching.. terribly.. I dare not cough for fear that I would run out of breath coughing.. Yes! That's it! I was running out of breath..! I tried to breathe.. Inhale... No! I can't!
I tried to keep my cool.. "Keep calm".. I told myself.. "Everything is gonna be alright".. I continued thinking to myself... But still NO! I can't breathe! I started pacing around my bedroom.. trying to suck in some air through my nostrils.. my mouth.. but NOTHING! My right arm started to pain.. a kind of painful numbness.. In desperation I gulped air.. but gulping air and breathing air is completely different.. completely..
I kept on trying.. Inhaling... Sucking in air.. I almost gave up the fight when finally a breakthrough.. That tiny bit of air got through to my lungs.. I started to calm down a bit.. But again.. my air passage was blocked.. Once again I can't breathe..! My eyes started to tears.. With what's left of my energy I gave it one last shot.. I sucked the air as hard as I could through my mouth.. I remember the weird sound that came out of my mouth from trying to suck some air into my lungs.. Weird sound indeed..
After what seemed like eternity, I managed to get some air.. I started to breathe.. slowly at first.. and then I could feel the blockage slowly disappearing.. as if it was never there.. and I got to breathe normally again.. Alhamdulillah.. But I'm now traumatised.. It could happen again in the future.. Will it happen when I'm awake.. or asleep..? Alone or around family and friends.. or when I'm among strangers..? When will it happen..? Will I survive to tell the tale..?
The answer is... only GOD knows.. All that lives must one day die.. the only sure thing in life is death.. In HIM I put my trust.. "Ya Allah! Hidupkanlah aku dalam Iman.. dan matikanlah aku dalam Iman.. AMIN!"
I tried to keep my cool.. "Keep calm".. I told myself.. "Everything is gonna be alright".. I continued thinking to myself... But still NO! I can't breathe! I started pacing around my bedroom.. trying to suck in some air through my nostrils.. my mouth.. but NOTHING! My right arm started to pain.. a kind of painful numbness.. In desperation I gulped air.. but gulping air and breathing air is completely different.. completely..
I kept on trying.. Inhaling... Sucking in air.. I almost gave up the fight when finally a breakthrough.. That tiny bit of air got through to my lungs.. I started to calm down a bit.. But again.. my air passage was blocked.. Once again I can't breathe..! My eyes started to tears.. With what's left of my energy I gave it one last shot.. I sucked the air as hard as I could through my mouth.. I remember the weird sound that came out of my mouth from trying to suck some air into my lungs.. Weird sound indeed..
After what seemed like eternity, I managed to get some air.. I started to breathe.. slowly at first.. and then I could feel the blockage slowly disappearing.. as if it was never there.. and I got to breathe normally again.. Alhamdulillah.. But I'm now traumatised.. It could happen again in the future.. Will it happen when I'm awake.. or asleep..? Alone or around family and friends.. or when I'm among strangers..? When will it happen..? Will I survive to tell the tale..?
The answer is... only GOD knows.. All that lives must one day die.. the only sure thing in life is death.. In HIM I put my trust.. "Ya Allah! Hidupkanlah aku dalam Iman.. dan matikanlah aku dalam Iman.. AMIN!"
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